hope!

In life, we keep expecting too much from people, ourselves & even from the environment surrounding us.  Sometimes if not always trying to be optimistic, hoping for pleasant news.  That could be a result of our religion, or even culture.  There’s no harm from being neither hopeful nor optimistic. But the tragedy happens when un-expected occurs; something wasn’t planned for or prepared to.  My life & health been consumed on those un-expected events, events that were unbearable and painful.  Few of those times where I felt happy at and at most times I was trying to put on a smiley mask.  However, am grateful to Allah and I do realizes nothing happened for no reason.  It made the girl I’m today “Not perfect” but a girl with good & bad experiences.  A girl who would look back and never is ashamed of her past.  Because each mistake have taught me to be stronger and more cautious in the future.  The last two months been the worst through out my life, just today I’m more convinced that I have to move on.  I should be more focusing now on my health & physical appearance. There are a lot of things in life waiting for me.  I still have to manage not to depend on anyone.

Wish me luck because I need it.  And good luck to everyone. 

welcome the new me!

despite her madness, she’s the source of my joy

it’s an animal, but keeps comforting me

when ever she sees me crying or in a bad status

something to learn from here! hope you’d get it

bad habits

Each one of us has this bad habits they practice it so often, it might be observed by own individual or by others. Of course am pointing at the ones that have bad impact on individuals & people surrounding you. You know deep inside it’s bad and you want to change it, but you simply cant because in the end it’s a habit. Giving up on those bad habits requires great well & a goal. The worst habit that can fall in that category is SMOKING, Addiction on drugs & Drinking.

OK! have you ever listed your bad habits? .. if you answered with yes, did you ever tried to change any of it?

Here are my worst habits and lets hope it will be changed soon

1. Eating without feeling hungry.
2. I always have this frown look on ma face for no reason.
3. Spending loads of money on useless stuff.
4. I never apologize *and if it’s happened that I apologized to you, you should be thankful*
5. Eating Chocolate ALL the time *I mean ALL the TIME*
6. Am a stubborn to the max even with myself.
7. Being to honest that I could hurt others. It cud be described as being RUDE too

the list go on…

I think some are connected with the mood, and some are just part of who I’m.. Some I learnt to live with, and some I have to change if I was welling to live healthy, wealthy & among normal people.

time to go to bed, it’s 2:45 am already ..

listening to Lithium by Evanscene watch the video Thank you Ansam for recommending the song

I have realised that..

I have realised that … 

• Lonelier you feel, lonelier the world makes you feel….
• Words had hurt me more than the wounds I had suffered in life….
• If you make decisions with your heart, you are bound to regret them later in your life…
• Every relationship has an expiry date….
• Tears convey more than what words can ever say….

beautiful meaningful lines I’ve received today via my work e-mail and thought of sharing ..

• Don’t make someone a priority in your life, when you are just an option in their life. Relationships work best when they are balanced.
• We make them cry who care for us. 
  • We cry for those who never care for us. 
    • And we care for for those who will never cry for us. 

                This is the truth of life, it’s strange but true! once you realise this, it’s never too late to change.

Found it on ma desk this morning, can you guess how I felt?

My second fav Mocha