hope!

In life, we keep expecting too much from people, ourselves & even from the environment surrounding us.  Sometimes if not always trying to be optimistic, hoping for pleasant news.  That could be a result of our religion, or even culture.  There’s no harm from being neither hopeful nor optimistic. But the tragedy happens when un-expected occurs; something wasn’t planned for or prepared to.  My life & health been consumed on those un-expected events, events that were unbearable and painful.  Few of those times where I felt happy at and at most times I was trying to put on a smiley mask.  However, am grateful to Allah and I do realizes nothing happened for no reason.  It made the girl I’m today “Not perfect” but a girl with good & bad experiences.  A girl who would look back and never is ashamed of her past.  Because each mistake have taught me to be stronger and more cautious in the future.  The last two months been the worst through out my life, just today I’m more convinced that I have to move on.  I should be more focusing now on my health & physical appearance. There are a lot of things in life waiting for me.  I still have to manage not to depend on anyone.

Wish me luck because I need it.  And good luck to everyone. 

welcome the new me!

despite her madness, she’s the source of my joy

it’s an animal, but keeps comforting me

when ever she sees me crying or in a bad status

something to learn from here! hope you’d get it

bad habits

Each one of us has this bad habits they practice it so often, it might be observed by own individual or by others. Of course am pointing at the ones that have bad impact on individuals & people surrounding you. You know deep inside it’s bad and you want to change it, but you simply cant because in the end it’s a habit. Giving up on those bad habits requires great well & a goal. The worst habit that can fall in that category is SMOKING, Addiction on drugs & Drinking.

OK! have you ever listed your bad habits? .. if you answered with yes, did you ever tried to change any of it?

Here are my worst habits and lets hope it will be changed soon

1. Eating without feeling hungry.
2. I always have this frown look on ma face for no reason.
3. Spending loads of money on useless stuff.
4. I never apologize *and if it’s happened that I apologized to you, you should be thankful*
5. Eating Chocolate ALL the time *I mean ALL the TIME*
6. Am a stubborn to the max even with myself.
7. Being to honest that I could hurt others. It cud be described as being RUDE too

the list go on…

I think some are connected with the mood, and some are just part of who I’m.. Some I learnt to live with, and some I have to change if I was welling to live healthy, wealthy & among normal people.

time to go to bed, it’s 2:45 am already ..

listening to Lithium by Evanscene watch the video Thank you Ansam for recommending the song

wait for you!

Good morning my few loyal readers

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it’s harder every time. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.

You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you’ve never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back. Don’t be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

*musical break*
Some of the hardest things are easy to achieve with patience

I’ll wait for you until the heavens fall
I’ll wait for you until the end of the world
I’ll wait for you until I no longer breathe
I know that it’s not impossible
I’ll wait for you until you finish your fight
I’ll wait for you until the timing is right
I’ll wait for you until you knock on my door
Cuz right now it’s feeling just like a movie yeah

*go dances around*

Uff was interupted, breakfast arrived but I dont want any way

Back, I just came to know that one of ma colleagues is mad at me over silly reason that I feel too shy to mention, I mean like come on! those local ladies are really SILLY & have so tiny what so called BRAIN! FU** ‘em all, I cant wait to be moved away from this WOMEN community that is taking place on this floor *faint*.. I wouldnt care to go and clarify myself since it’s clearly obvious shes wrong! I dont need any more pressure on myself! I almost had accident this early morning after picking ma coffee from Starbucks, AND I passed a red signal! Yohoo all the lessons I took when I was kid of NOT passing a red signal vanished at that moment!

This li’l tiny dress was handmade pour moi by a very sweet colleague

and if you were wondering, it’s not my size *sniff*

my loyal companion @ work

biting ma shoe :S I dont know how I’ll be able to travel & leave her *sob sob*

does anyone knows any Pet temp. hotel like in Abu Dhabi :P where I can leave her in a safe place during my absence

 

*back to singing*  am in sucha mood

YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO THIS SONG, By Lara Fabian ..

All of my tears have been frozen
After these years in this pain
My heart has finally chosen
To beat a bit faster again
Now I feel the awakening
I don’t look back anymore
I am mysteriously standing on the good side of my soulAll I recall is the moment
Sadness is fading away
It is for passion I’m falling but now I’m back on my feet again
I wanna rewrite the story
Not even what seemed insane

How could I ever feel sorry for being stronger than I am?
I’ve cried enough
Over the priceless time I’ve lost
I’ve learned the going gets too tough
Now you regret love
I’ve cried enough
What you’ll see on my face again
Is nothing but the rain
I’ve cried enoughWhy would I try to deny it?
Most of my dreams are a mess
But what didn’t kill me in fact has taught me
Life’s a big game of test
Although in I believe in the future
I keep in mind all the past
Now that I live in the present
I don’t care about the rest